i have finally acknowledged my emptiness without dan. there is this huge void constantly nagging at me and it refuses to be forgotten. its rather obnoxious, really. it makes me feel lower & more alone than i've ever felt. i was in denial about it for a long time, trying so desperately to fill that (his) space in with someone i had just met. i couldn't understand why i was obsessing about someone i barely knew. but once i realized how utterly alone i felt, and how much i crave that feeling of comfort and security and love, it finally started to make sense. its not about that guy at all, its about dan. and it has been this whole time.