I didn't abondon you, I didn't leave you in the cold..
I'm right here where I've always been..
where I will stay as long as I can.
I thought you felt me there, I thought you knew i was standing there..
I'm doing my best..
can't you see?
The closer I move, the further you draw away.
and why in the end, is it always anger i feel?
I guess I feel useless and hopeless. I try so hard to be there for a boy, but everytime i try to push him, he pulls the other way. I just don't know what do do anymore...
maybe, I'm missunderstanding it all.
This entry was in response to what was in the boy's LJ.
I'm slowly losing my grasp..
you seem to slowly slip away..
the more I reach..
the farther you get..
no matter how much I want to hold on..
I can't seem to not let go..
I want you to live life free of my worries..
but live your life with me..
these things I can not ask..
will not ask..
and I hope forever, you remember me..
for the rest of eternity..
and what you've done and mean..
to me..