shine on

A pill for a pill

2004-12-04

I feel partially responsible for his newly found drug use. You see, this guy and BD were really good friends. But due to some drama between myself, the BD, the friend, and a couple others, the friend and BD are no longer friends. In fact, BD now hates said friend. And I feel guilty as hell, because a lot of that drama revolved around me in an odd sort of way. So now the friend is really depressed, and feels like he has no friends, because his two or three best friend have turned on him, due to recent events. (it�s a long story with a lot of drama I don�t feel like going through right now)So this friend, had turned to his old friends, and that�s fine. But at the same time scares me. Because his old friends are really into drugs. And I�m watching the friend slowly get pulled in to. He�s been rolling for the past two days. To help with his depression I�m sure, and escape from eveyrhting else.I'm not sure if its anyworse though. The BD was turning hte friend into an alcholic, but which is more dangerous?
It�s funny though. I don�t necessarily understand people. A pill, to fix another pill. The E wears out a persons serotonin levels, so they take another pill, to replenish them. Just like more alchol is many peoples for a headache. They take a pill, to fix what the pill has done, only so they can abuse the pill more. Sad, really. It worries me. But he won�t listen, and I can�t push him. It will make him want to do it more. All I can sit here is watch. Watch, and worry.

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