and for some reason, for me, they all do. i don't smoke. i don't really like when people smoke.. yet almost every guy i'm attracted to seems to smoke. i don't find the act initself attractive at all. i don't like when they taste like cigarettes. and in a way, i do.

The boy (my boy) was an avid smoker. he also persistantly tasted like cigarettes, no matter how hard he tried not to. in a way, it was so cute. his trying. but he was the only one that could really ever get away with it. Anyways the other boy-- the one with my two minute mistakes, i can't even remeber if he did or not. taste like them i mean. or maybe i was just too drunk to notice.

either way it was all very foolish.

and my quilt serves as a reminder.