i wish i had learned the ability to let go a long time ago. Then i would be rid of you.it's not like this is the first time, and it's not like i'm the first one. Your promises are so thick they are solid-- some sort of stone by now. I hope they weigh you down, like they anchored me in all of this. I undestand where i stand now, i'm sorry that i had to sneak aound that much to find out. you could have just told me. saved me alot of time. alot... of wasted time. you couldn't have saved me from the pain ( i think my pain was in the plans no matter what way you chose), but you could have at least hurried up the process.

i don't hate you. i just wish i did.