So. we hadn't talked for a long time. and then i had to have may bi-annual emotional breakdown about school and about me being a failure. And then he had to be there for me. And he had to make me feel better like no one else could.

I hate that he can do that.

God damnit. i was so close.

Things, People, He hasn't/haven't changed as much as i had hoped. I think if he didn't care at all, it'd be that much easier.

right when i think its unthinkable, even being freinds, he has to be really really decent. even better than decent. and had to do a better job than anyone i know. Ugh.

Why'd you have to remind me of who you were?