school is finally going in the right- graduation around the corner -kind of direction.

i am in a happy relationship, while from all the entries you may not be able to tell, but do realize most of the time i write i am frustrated/mad or being paranoid.

my jealousy is something i never realized was so out of control until thumbing through older entries. i guess its just what happens after you come out of a relationship that was half-assed by the end, and your trust was thrown out the window.

and its part of the beauty of my current relationship. both the bf and i are learning to trust again.

the boy is officially engaged by the way. while yes there is some underlying sense of jealousy, i am happy for him. the girl is a nice girl, and we are all happier than we were however many years ago, so why not celebrate it. i'm obviously not invited to the wedding, not that i would go but i thought the formality would maybe be nice.

i did write a "congratulations" on both of their facebooks. because i felt it was the "right" thing to do. and more honestly, i thought everyone would notice if i didn't.

anyways my mom had a bad ass new year's party i worked at for her, which i definitley think deserves its own entry so i'll get to that later.

and i'm also excited that i got the new york city ballet workout, i've been dying to do ballet classes, but kind of embarrassed to be starting and such an old age. so its a nice substitute for now. While i don't plan to pursue ballet seriously (i am 22! a ballerina's prime or past-prime age), it would still be a dream of mine to make it on pointe. a dream i plan on pursuing.

anyways i'll let you know if the dvd is any good.