i miss things i never thought i would, and others i thought i'd be dying without i don't miss at all.

but you surprised me the most. there was no way i could prepare myself for how much i would miss you. in the end, after all these months, you are the only one that it is still hard to think of. or not think of.

your absence is the ache in my shoulders. on top of thinking of you so much lately (even though i shouldn't.), you called me and i was complete asshole because i had no choice. and i've felt bad about it ever since.

and i hurt you but there's no choice and it's never hurt so much to do the right thing.