well ok. i lied.i have some kind of an idea.

but its frusterating. because the less active and healthy i am, the less energy i have to do anything about it. and none of my clothes are fitting and the lack of motivation is kind of terrifying.

i know i'm "comfortable" being in a 2.5 year relationship and all, but that's no excuse. I need to get my ass in gear. i know once i do it won't be so hard... i hope.

i am way too tired for a 24 year old, no matter how many jobs or how much school work there is. i should not be this tired ALL THE TIME.

i hate this. the running starts again. tommorow. tonight. now.