now at my age, this binge drinking is not as accepted and once you take my terrible diarrhea of the mouth, it becomes quiet embarrassing.

i absolutely can not shut up when very drunk. and i almost always end up saying things that make me sound like an asshole, or just come off wrong. i HOPE people just assume i'm wasted, but if they don't know me well theyll just assume that i'm a jerk. which is usually the case.

dan says i have this problem sober also. but not nearly to the same extent. i do find myself wishing i could take things back as their coming out of my mouth more than i'd like to admit. but when i'm drunk. i don't realize how bad they sound until the next day.

I wish i was like this one co worker of mine. love her or hate her she is going to say whatever pops in her mind, and she is not going to feel bad about it. and she's definitely not going to apologize for it.

anyways, got super drunk at bar job last night. said some pretty lame stuff, and now i have to go back tonight and i'm pretty embarrassed.

ugh. no more drinking.