every time i look back on my time at my first college it is with nothing but fondness and a feeling of belonging and longing. and of course the highs were high and the lows were low, but that made it all the more wonderful.

we are attempting to get a bunch of people together from our group, but there is already so much drama just in the are planning. i forgot about how completely stressful my friend situation had become, and that my group was no longer a group. while we were at one time many years ago, since then enemies have been made, people have been betrayed (some)people have been forgiven. and its all weird and its all complicated. I just want to have fun on my birthday, I only get to see any of these people a few times a year, but somehow i know theres going to be alot more to it.