- It's not home.
- its fucking Spain
- Learn a new language
- learn a new culture
- great people
- once in a life time chance
- i truly feel like I am healing here
- happier than i have been in a long time.

reasons not to stay;
- kell;s wedding
- family
- getting a real place and job once the program ends would be very daunting and anxiety inducing
- have no experience in teaching english
- will be out of $ at program end, so would need to get job asap or take a loan from my parents, which has its own problems
- language barrier

i'm still not sure. going to revisit this in a month.