in fact, he's doing pretty great. and that's nice to know. lost alot of weight, got a promotion, got a healthy lifestyle, going back to school soon (but he's been saying that one for years) and other things. he was very touchy and flirty which i wasn't feeling so much and at the same time it felt natural and comfortable at first... and then it felt uncomfortable.

i was afraid he was going to try to kiss me. i know that tickling is his way of trying to get close to me so he can, because i am extremely shy and this is how he got me to kiss him the first time, however many years ago. (side note) I find it funny the ways guys find to get around my shyness. my favs were dans (the tickling) and the spanish guy who waited until we were in an elevator and pushed me up against the wall and kissed me. anyways back to the point, he said he wanted to hang out and have us be friends. I told him the truth, I don't think guys and girls (especially ones that have dated) can be really close friends.

shit eventually gets weird. makes me think of the quote "If two past lovers can remain friends, they are still in love, or never were." plus i'm probably still jaded about what happened in spain & i haven't really had anyone disprove this theory either. it probably came off bitchy, but at least it was honest.

but i am glad to know that he's doing really well. i wish i was doing as amazing!

oh well, in time.