i also dreamt i was a thai princess. which directly correlates to the book i've been reading before bed. it just surprised me because the inspiration of the dream was so obvious and certain. they are normally so convoluted and nonsensical.

also, i got fired yesterday. it was swift and painful. the first time i've ever been fired from anything. i am fucking humiliated. and panicked. of course this happens a week after i sign a 6month lease to a new apartment. i must have done something fucked up. thanks, karma.

it wasn't a personnel thing though, i made a black and white mistake on the computer system. it was a policy exception and it was undeniable but also understandable. my manager said he didn't think i did anything wrong, that i could use him as a reference, that he's sorry it went down this way.

so. that's where i am. been unemployed one day but re did my resume and have already started applying all over the internet. so it could be worse. I also felt loved that my friends rallied around me. we had wine and oreos and watched tv while i vented that i was an unemployed loser and they let me know it was okay.

and now i'm off to get trashed on a tuesday night, because i'm heartbroken i've been fired after putting 4 years in. and because, that's what un employed people do.