so i will probably be writing about the same thing in different ways alot of the time. or just be REALLY lazy and talk about the same stupid stuff in the same way. but hopefully it eventually will be in a better way.

so on we go.

My parents are mad because I had to miss my cousins wedding for work. and its not like its real work either. its stupid dead end job work. At the same time, it is the only job i've had held for over a year, thus my only resume worthy one and i don't want to go on fucking it up now. Im also upset i missed the wedding, and i hate knowing everyones mad at me. R had the nerve to say he was angry that i missed it. which just kind of pissed me off. because he chose to move to japan for 3 years and come home once a year if that. he has no idea how much family shit he missed, and no one was mad at him for it.

and work. everyone is leaving work. transferring, getting promoted or just out right quitting. right now the only people that will be left is me and the lifers. the older ladies who have no aspirations to move up, and have been working there 10 years. i don't plan on being a bank teller forever. but i cant move up without working 40 hours, which i can't do because of school. and i can't really go anywhere else thats worthwhile, until i finish school.

anyways, one of the people quitting is the person that is my immediate boss. she is alot of why i stay. she's just all around awesome and pretty much the best boss i could ask for. plus shes a neat lady. (that sentence makes me sound 60 years old)

i was considering quitting and just taking school head on, i dont really NEED the job. at the same time, im used to the money and i think if i didn't move up after being there for a year now, if i put it on a resume it might just look lazy, or theyll assume i suck. i dont know what to do. i don't want to out right quit but i can't move up. and i like the money. if things start to get more serious at my second job i might just make my second job my only job. The hours alot easier and would not interfere with school.

we'll see i guess.