i'm doing the "i'm upset and i want something but there is no way i will ever vocalize it, so i will just sit there and want and have an attitude and boy will be clueless as to why, but knows there is a reason." kind of deals. and then he will shrug it off and go back to boy world and video games and i will file it away in things to be silently bitter about and to bring up and later inconvenient times.

wow. that really sounds horrible. but thats how it truly plays out. i know i should communicate with him that i'm upset, but i feel like its stupid and not worth being upset about so i don't say anything until i'm so upset everything comes spilling out and he wishes he never asked what was wrong and just wants to shut me up.

but really. it does bother me. it was our year anniversary. fucking. one. year. anniversary. you could have at least gotten me a card. or even MADE a card. or anything, really.