Additionally if I fail to uphold or abstain from whatever i've chosen, i don't feel like i've failed Jesus. So really, its a win win. :P I should tell Dan i gave up sex just to see the look on his face.

Anyways. we have a kind of weird situation where one of Dan's friends got a job at my work (yes the exact same store, we even work right next to eachother.) said friend then proceeded to become one of Dan's roomates. now, this is just getting awkward because this guy is everywhere. and he is now friends with both of us. i'm pretty sure he can also hear us have sex fro his room. he is also getting caught in the middle of our shit, when we do have shit. i try not to drag him but he has witnessed it all.

..including psycho post-rum screaming jenn. this is my rarest form. Now this jenn comes out freely and soberly for my mother. because god, she can bring it out of me. but most people i know have never witnessed it. infact they don't believe this version of me even exists. (but your so quiet! and so nice! you're never mean at all.) um yeah. so anyways. only the people i love most and hold dearest have the distinct privilege dealing with this horrible side of me. anyways. dan and i got into a half drunken fight (me being the drunk half) and he was yelling at me in the car. anyways fight proceeds to living room and said guy/newroomate is utterly terrified of me. and i now feel kind of humiliated every time i see him at work.

even worse. he brought up at work! in front of people. how he was awe struck and had never seen me like that, and he couldn't believe what he was seeing! then all my co workers were inquiring, and say they couldn't imagine it. & i was thoroughly humiliated.

I also walked around with a huge coffee stain right down the middle of my shirt today. so i guess worse things have happened.